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erase those thoughts
to think this was aptness as I cut and bleed.
time will pass and,
a lonely chill, be afraid
liveliness? it was random gesture
to draw you in and think of the benevolence.
the munificence it will happen
but this time you will be below
remember the maggots
will they keep you warm?
the rot?
slow deterioration, you will.
come—you can not escape
I am remorseful and not because of this
oh, the essence of tears falling in the dark
my expressions, linger—
think of your good deeds,
kept us out of harm's way.
then the guilt, it happened quick.
Let loose and be afraid
we are in this together and soon you become brave?
beliefs?
to disapprove?
of deception?
sudden visions, hot tea, the forthcoming?
your voice, it was never heard
it's time to wipe away those euphoric thoughts
your flesh, now my lungs are on the floor;
the images resembling bodies, our estranged parts
where is the blood?
fingers, skin, books, mistrust
it will come to an end,
the veins desiccate.
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I am not like you
where are your eyes?
guessing, calculating?
some distinct distinct imperfections?
they are fearful in your brilliant stare;
enormously. superior visions
oddly shaped images
twisting.
twitching.
faultless?
in these vague sights
sudden thoughts are haunting me
blurred, rejections; faded suggestions in our secluded mind.
where have your eyes been?
wondering?
perfecting?
or remembering of a place that I have never seen.
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We all fade (one day)
allow me to begin
with a narcissistic tale of our strange considerations,
wedge of contemplation,
bleak illustrations of undisclosed mishaps,
the creaks and cracks.
vacant road be the one to change,
listen, my sorrows will soon follow;
open-eyed and wondering—
beyond wisdom following deceit,
past memories and disbelief.
see a smile?
one that knows of safe
Simple. Floating. Diminutive hope
of broken misconceptions, I use it as control?
in this well knitted end.
wanted to overwhelm you
why did you let me do it?
It just seems you are not worth saving and I would fade.
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Feel my words
An empathetic scream, I would run David--
hopelessness, hopeless, hope
the fate, a dream, my wonder
Touch me, feel me; look at my beautiful skin.
I put together the pieces
to find a long and winding, the tortuous feeling of self doubt.
frigid blue; impulsive dull sky
brightened my day; light my night
hold me to my friend, this shame
the warm feeling of misery.
I can not read this name
know my love that I write
letters and sound, smeared on to a page.
I wait and wait; waiting to wait
I am just a sorry impetuous stranger
with messy hair, and I am creating, saving.
my feeling of self might
tell me what your lies keep
your extraordinary stare
you are speaking with my soft yellow tongue
let’s formulate a right
let us make amends
I’m not like them, and
I am becoming like you,
there is nothing left to write.
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Untitled.
they write about you in chilling fright.
we are just a lonely set of numbers
of associations and expertise;
slighted and advancing below
my evil secret night.
through a squeaky foamy window,
panicking,
senses moving—
my wandering, wonder?
Shifting, looking through stained letters,
showing might, tell me what is fine,
what is mine
intimidating words are not of interest
to impress my pretty face.
Finally, loneliness and memories are
A paler taste, the feeling of guilt
the acquaintances are words I create
the innocent feelings of self-doubt
knowing you would never go,
trying to see this, I can not be awake right now.
the same is just too scary
why did you let me do it?
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Reflections by no means meet
Ever so unfathomable; swimming across the deep
promising.
struggling through
while you lay asleep,
Worrying.
In these times, our voracity,
curiosities are green in motion,
Our childish grin,
Hiding.
lies to keep; under the skin,
Passing.
We will never give up,
fingers soon float down,
Pointing.
promises— occasional guarantees,
the beginning, the end,
I will fail to help you up,
when our reflections fail to meet.
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I need, I hurt
Walking down this road, to an awful place
I walk around with no face
it complicates
I need, I hurt?
where is my face?
how did I get here?
without my face where can I go?
how to start a fire?
I can't see my attire
grab my eyes, remove these ties
as you may know, fate lies
as you can tell, I'm not invincible
as I see barely invisible
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not afar and waiting
don’t smash its fingers
fear is easier and simpler
afraid to look around
pick one or two, four or five
they all die!
this Monster is not afar
but we will venture away.
afraid? To Hide?
he will choose and snag—
chew and grab
waiting and creating
I’m afraid to look around
with monster eyes.
Such absolute surprise
I'm Monster is at the door
He will make you believe
with these monster friends and
with monster mends,
waiting to escape?
I am wanting to complicate.
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You and Me
What are you thinking?
up all night wondering, waiting
we both knew this was hard
broken and apart
to fix the broken heart
soon after I ripped it.
Your trust
My meaning
just give me some anticipation
with a whisper
with a gentle touch--
vulgar, twisted hope
helpless words
a graying heart
sad with expected tears
strange fears.
One day I found you
broken and disabled
in pieces, wearing my frown
waiting for me to heal your broken heart
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Perfect night
What do you see,
when you feel the light?
Some perpetual show?
The time for you to go?
These clouds will part,
to hide the fright
Forever adieu,
irrational night!
Promise your love,
will suck my fears,
hide my tears
The time has come farewell,
good night.
Always remember
The perfect stitches to unite the heart
My perfect lies to keep you safe
The perfect cuts for the simple times
Perfect memories, to rip us apart.
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I taste like dirt
They call me again
I want it to end
just call me again
we will be free
like hanging, twisting in a tree
our hair in the wind
we could even be friends?
Or a gun to the head
stuck in a web?
could you let me out
make us believe
a gun will help me?
slowly venture away!
I will teach you!
like everyone else look at your skin
maybe you got the disease.
How much I hurt,
I taste like dirt,
the mud flows through my veins
some ambition?
it will eat my intuition
wash this from me and you?
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What is fate?
I'm in exile and you’re alone?
this is fate and this is what I know
where did it leave me?
open your eyes
the dark side of you and me
I'll make you believe, you will see
rattle those teeth
it only takes time
to bring us to this place;
a dark and lonely road
the twisted empty show
a weathered path and crooked little traps
hopeless injuries; mental discoveries
the morals that you break
only a thin line between this, our fate
wait and see, you'll believe
welcome to the dark side of you and me
craving, grasping with no end
this is fate, my friend!
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grasping, gasping, end.
Breathe; I need to peel away the sin
craving and gasping with no end
The ground?
Never show the ground the salt!
There is hope!
maybe there shouldn’t be
we should drift away?
Maggots on a leash
Horns of the beast!
creeping and following
we could run away?
I’m afraid to look around
Flowers are on the ground!
I’m waiting and creating.
BUT YOU FLOATED AWAY!
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Establishment of hope
Looking past some darkened shadow,
soothing pain that never mattered,
having a life that never shows?
I will keep an open letter!
I will hope of a cold tomorrow
black and blue; wet with sorrow
I'm slipping past my new beginning
never want to see the ending
broken by my deposition
wide awake in the sleeping position.
Dry tears always healing
maybe someday I should wet them
patch this gray beneath my feet
floating but oh so steep
unable from my lack of attention
broken blister of the pain that itches
clear and smooth almost better.
I will hope of a blue tomorrow
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how other’s see
Cold and unreasonable,
unperceivable,
so darkly cynical,
lonely and disposable
shallow and vengeful, this is typical?
sitting with my friend, my own distinct pain
so very dry my pain is all alone
gave up my voice, I just gave it away
I took apart my grand deception
extracting this fuzzy crippled profession
as I dream in dithered multi-color
in this black and white, clear perception
with it my narcissism trembles away
within the long dry summer days—
blind faith will lead us away.
drink of this old red twisted bitter vein
so very tall, that my dried up leaves won't fall
the cool crisp breeze blows beneath me
ripping away the scabs that heal me
shimmering blue with this creativity
I dare not say in this harsh broken tone
turned off my glowing red neon light
I fell for you without a sight
thinking of taking that midnight journey
flirting with the illusion of possibility
finally I closed my disappointing eye
covered myself, and said goodbye.
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happy little
I met you past this velvet chain
looked at you and felt the same
through the knot, skipped the hope
the sight of you made me choke!
use to care about the light
now I'm sewn to this cold night
I had hope; I still have hope!
give me a tighter rope!
cut you up and let you be
licked your lips and let you bleed
as I christened you to this nimble cross
you took me to this awful place
where I would never have your happy face?
never ending sins to see
choked my eyes, I can not be
give me a place and let me free!
prayed for God to save the day
as I stained this fog that came to me
pushed you far, far away
happy ending, little hope
Jesus Christ I'm coming home
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alone?
